It has been about two weeks again since posting. There is so much going on around me that I am taking things in stride. Of course, keeping my commitment to write to encourage others and share my journey as well as my testimony about the goodness and mercy of God wasn’t well received by the enemy. From the dog attack to other areas of spiritual attacks, I am here to say that God is still good and that He is the same loving God today as He was yesterday. His word still holds true and we just have to hold on. Had a meltdown yesterday and the Lord was still there, carrying me through. Continue reading Thoughts for Today, 090616, Tuesday
The elusive search began at such an early age. Without even a true understanding of the word, Dina had been searching a lifetime for this and yet all the time and effort, money and thought, it’s elusive quality still remained the greatest obstacle to overcome. Nothing she had done had acquired perfection. Dina had realized sooner than she wanted to that as well as elusive, there was no standard by which to measure perfection. She knew that God had so eloquently stated that because of our imperfection, He loved us anyway. Accepted us as we are. Why not? He created us.
However, by the world’s standard, perfection was real. The perfect job, husband, home, children and church. She had been searching for this since the age where perfection in beauty had claimed her heart first. Pam, her best friend, didn’t understand what all the hoopla was about. She had accepted herself for who she was at such a young age. However, Dina knew that Pam’s mother had had some real issues with Pam’s father. Not sure that is why Pam couldn’t get caught up in the hoopla. She was too busy focusing on the drama in the house. But, in reflection, Dina could see the calmness of Pam, there was a quiet peace she couldn’t put her finger on.
Pam had been a true cater-cousin. The intimacy they shared had been perfect. Pam had accepted her for who she was and as well, she had accepted Pam. They shared what they were experiencing at such a young age. The conversations ranged from everything about their families to boys and God. In reflection, Dina realized that Pam had found God early. She thought about the summer camp she had gone to with Pam. It was a Christian camp. It was fun but full of learning about living and working with others. Dina had not been into God when she was in her teens. However, Pam’s relationship with God had certainly put an aspect of God on her mind. Back to the perfection thing. Pam never tried to reach for perfection at any time that Dina could remember. Or did she? The quiet confidence Pam had spoke volumes even now. Though she had not spoken to her in quite a few years, Dina’s reflection continued between the two subjects, her best childhood friend and perfection.
Dina’s reflection turned to focus more on the perfection matter. When did she even start striving for perfection and based on what standard? That question boggled her mind at this time. She thought about how she was always comparing herself to someone else. The aspect of beauty she learned had been from magazines and television. Dina did not recall any conversations with her mother about what beauty was, whether real or imagined, true or false. She thought about what she had seen that was classified as beauty. The size eight, long hair, perfect makeup and trending couture was in the front of her mind at this time. She could afford none of those things. Being tall and somewhat gangly, the perfect size eight still did not fit her. Too skinny. And now: Big hips, big thighs, big lips and brown eyes. Not the picture that she compared to.
Thinking about perfection in love. What does that even look like? She knew the perfection of this one relationship she had with Pam. Maybe that was what it looked like. Someone loving you no matter what. Accepting you for who are, flaws and all. Being free around you and just living life. Was she confusing Pam with God? Or was the relationship with Pam presented as an element of what a relationship with God would like? God would have to be better, though. Wouldn’t He? Pam is a human being and with all the great things about her, she could change. God doesn’t. He is same yesterday, today and forever. Now, is that true perfection?
This is an interesting word of inspiration to write about. Understanding doesn’t necessarily mean agreement. Understanding does not mean acceptance. When you explain what you may be going through at any given moment, the person you are sharing with may nod in understanding. However, it doesn’t mean they agree with you. I understand how a child trained a certain way behaves because of the way they were raised. However, that doesn’t mean I accept that it is okay.
Let’s talk about what’s going on in the world today. The mass shooting that has occurred in Orlando, FL of the LGBT club is a tragedy. I understand that the Isis person believes that he is doing the right thing. That Isis believes they are to kill anyone who doesn’t agree with their philosophy. I understand that they believe the United States of America is the enemy. That understanding does not concede that it is okay, that this is the way people should deal with their feelings or beliefs.
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What do you see when you look out of your window? Gathering insight from the various bloggers on their view of their world, I thought this question would be thought-provoking regarding the world we live in and the current state of affairs. Do you see a world of hope or disaster? Do you see the hand of God moving regardless of what it looks like? Do you see the world as your permanent place or just a temporary place of residence? Do you see your part or role as significant in the world today? Do you see yourself helping others in this journey we are on? Do you see yourself as a vessel of God to be used for His glory? What do you see?
I posted the image above in a previous post about the girl in the window. However, I was playing around this morning and the thought came to me to use this image to ask the questions. As I read the Word daily with a new perspective, read the blogging community as well as reading other books, ever learning, I want to make sure that what I see is from God’s perspective.
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Woke up this morning, got my coffee and checked my email. Having been in a conversation with God about a certain area of my life I have been dealing with, I came across the following book by TD Jakes’ daughter, Cora Jakes Coleman entitled “Faithing It.” The title caught my eye and I downloaded a copy from BookBub e-books account for free. For those of you interested, you can sign up on the Bookbub website by clicking the highlight. Also, you can find out more about Cora Jakes Coleman by clicking the link. Not that I don’t have enough to read with my awesome blogging community, but this book title caught my attention.
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As I tossed and turned a little while attempting to sleep, one word seemed to resonate in my inner being. It was “resilient.” I have been thinking about this journey and the new aspects of moving forward as well as the best way to incorporate what the Lord is giving me to do now. Remember, my theme for this year is living in the “now.” First is the practical application of taking stock of my thoughts and dismissing the ones that are no good.
Of course, I checked the dictionary to understand the fullness of what this means. The definition of resilient is “the ability to recover readily from illness, depression, adversity, or the like.” At this point in time, I know that this is me. I found some pins to express myself like the “resilient” one following.
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Writing has always been a part of my life. I love words and wanted to do something with them. I have found myself in several fields that did not give me the reward I receive when I write. The older I get, the more I find that being true to oneself is key. What does that mean for many of us? Some people might not understand who they truly are.
As a Christian, I do believe that God gives each individual a purpose and gifts each person with a way to fulfill that purpose. Many of us spend years chasing circles because we either don’t understand or are not willing to listen to advice being given. Generally, young people tend to want to experience everything believing that things change with every generation. I think age has more to do with this perspective – idealistic, enthusiastic, and invincible. Some things change, everything doesn’t.
Well into mid-life, I find that I have come full circle. Even though I need work to pay the bills, I am content with writing. My heartfelt wish in writing is to share understanding about life and traveling life’s journey. Maybe someone reading what I write will be inspired and have that moment of clarity to fulfill what God has in store for them.
When I consider what type of writer I am, I believe my words cause readers to feel. The emotion a reader feels can be used to propel them further into realizing their dreams. While feelings are certainly fleeting, it is important to take what that feeling offers and move forward. For instance, anger has propelled into motion some of the greatest causes for freedom and liberty.
Anger is only one emotion, but used correctly can change a course of events to impact lives for the better. My point is this. As we move forward in our journeys, look to make an impact. Quit circling. I have never believed that I have to experience everything in my life to receive understanding. (I do not have to get burned just to believe the fire is hot.) Understand where you are headed and where you want to go. God is not slack concerning His purpose for your life and when you need additional clarity, He’ll give it to you. It may be in an actual experience, in reading, in listening, in seeing or just plain silence.
NKJV – Proverbs 2:2 – “So that you incline your ear to wisdom, And apply your heart to understanding.”