I spoke a couple days ago about the shoes we are given for our journey. And, while I definitely pointed out that we share our journey with others, whether we want to or not, I also want to share my thoughts on personal sabotage. As I have been reflecting, and I do a lot of that, realization is that sometimes we are our own worst enemy. I never thought about personal sabotage before. Sabotage always reminded me of the spy movies where one covert agent was trying to make sure the other agent’s plans were unsuccessful. Well, unfortunately and yet fortunately, I realize that I have been responsible for sabotage actions in my own life.
Let me explain. The last two years have been difficult, challenging, transient, tearful and yet rewarding at the same time. As I acquire the wisdom and knowledge God is giving me about myself, I am developing that understanding for others. Remember from the previous post, I was speaking about empathy. When we can and do receive the revelation and understanding about ourselves, empathy begins to develop. Revelation and understanding do not always bring a smiley face. Sometimes the pain of understanding ourselves and what we are truly responsible for in our own lives is more painful than a needle shot. And, if we truly accept what God is showing us about ourselves, the pain does last quite a bit longer than that needle shot. Oh, but after the pain, the knowledge, acceptance and vision for change is more awesome than we can imagine.